I love text chatting and reading and blogging... but, I think I need to draw some lines somewhere.
AS anyone reading will realise, I am new to this whole blogging game. I now have two blogs which I am updating semi regularly – through definitely not daily. I think I have become addicted to them, and I can see that the more time I spend on them, the more I will find to spend my time. I will start meeting friends that have blogs, and so I will start reading all of their blogs and writing comments and finding new cool little tricks and gadgets and bits of code to incorporate… but then, I have this commitment-phobe inside of me that is increasingly concerned about this new found interest of mine. It is whispering stuff in my ears like “But you won’t be able to keep it up!”, “You won’t always be able to think of interesting, insightful or witty things to say” – (actually this is more my writers block demon than my commitment phobic one speaking here)… oh, and mostly, “HOW WILL YOU FIND THE TIME??!! Your life was bursting at the seems before with all the things you wanted to do, how will you be able to fit all these cyber-based activities in as well?”
I guess I can ignore the other whispers, but the last one is a bit of a concern.
I am already finding it hard enough to live with all the me’s I have. I am perpetually split between the athletic, adventurous out-door me and the arty, creative, pondering indoor me. And each of those me’s are split aswell. The outdoor me wants to be a shit hot climber, paddler, mountain bike rider and surfer. The arty indoor me wants to learn Spanish, write poetry, learn guitar, learn how to knit, paint, draw, take photos, read… oh, and that is just a start of both me’s. The extrovert and the introvert.
But, I guess the arty, creative, thinking introvert is the part of me that often gets neglected, so maybe this new-found blogging addiction will feed that part better. Mmm… yeah, that justification works. But that is the other problem, I can justify anything, even when it is the wasting of time. And blogging is definitely a great justification for procrastination. Two things that I am very good at: procrastination and justification. They feed each other really, in a self-perpetuating cycle.
If it were just the blogs, that would be okay, but then there are all the other things. The social networking sites for instance, the live chats that just conspire to eat in to your life too much. I have been asked by a recruiter (that I have met and who has lined me up with a good interview) to join some professional networking site, which I did, I guess because I am unemployed and vulnerable. My boyfriend has just joined Myspace, in order to get in touch with an old friend, and someone else has just asked me to join Facebook, which I have dutifully done this morning, because I am socially isolated and lonely. But then, so what now? I join these sites, and I log in each day to view and read and send comments? As well as logging into my blogs and every other blog I want to read, check me emails, read the news, look for and apply for jobs and then manage to get some fresh air, exercise and a find a social life in there somewhere… Oh, and I haven’t even put in a proper profile to my blog yet let alone to the other social networking sites…
Like right now, it is nearly lunch time, and I have not even started doing anything with my day. Arrrrrrrrrrggghhh.
Will my computer crash (with all the junk I am downloading on to it) or will I crash first? Mmm, somethings gotta give, methinks. Am I just having teething problems?
Do any of my vast readers out there (lol) have any words of wisdom to offer?
5 comments:
When I first started up blogging again (I've been on and off for a good few years now) I had the same problems. How was I going to keep people interested? How do I come up with witty entries everytime I need to blog?
True is, you don't. You go through slums but always come out the other side, so if you get bummed because you think your entries aren't cool or quirky or anything like they used to be, just chill, it'll come back to you sooner or later :)
As for blogging and having a life, well, blogs aren't interesting unless someone has a life to right about, so it's almost like the blog is encouraging you to have a life!
All true. You are wise one indeed! I knew you'd come up with the goods. ;-)
Man, check out all those sweet spelling mistakes I made lol.
Its all true. I think sometimes we are split from the same stone. Except that instead of writting poetry i want to make my own fonts.
The thing im coming to terms with is that in order to sleep at night, I have to think that life is super long and I am going to get to all those things... not today but eventually.
Lists let me sleep.
Right now im in the middle of a work list but just want to do this stuff.
x
I be thinking that sometimes too, (re. cut from the same stone). Yeah, lists. Maybe I need to start using them again. I go through phases. They do aid sleep, for sure. I like the convincing yourself that you will have enough time thing too. Might try that one on for size ;-)
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