knot tying

I am getting married. It seems so weird and strange, written and spoken. I am trying to say it over and over again, not just because I am excited about it, but so that maybe it will start to sound less weird. It just seems so grown up. But beautiful and perfect. It was not a particularly momentus or romantic proposal, and it happened right in the middle of my 7 day work week from hell (which I shall no doubt discuss as well!) We were just lying on the floor mucking around and then the mood just shifted and I asked Jono what he was thinking. That was it. So, we might have to stage a more romantic evening sometime when we both have a couple of days and evening off together. This is extremely rare these days. But, romance (or lack of) aside, I could not make my feet touch the ground while trying to walk to work the next day, and I just had this ridiculous smile on my face that I could not wipe off, even when dealing with annoying customers. Actually, I think I had only nice customers that day! I don't know if that was directly related to my head space and perception or not.

But, the whole marriage and knot tying thing is interesting. I have never been that sort of person that always wanted to get married, or that saw marriage as an essential step in life. There have been occasions where I have been a little turned off by the institution of marriage or the way it gets made in to something that is incredibly stressful and expensive but cheap and cliche at the same time. But, the fact is, I am absolutely in love and I could not imagine spending my life with anyone else, so why not make a statement and celebrate that?

But it still sounds weird. I am about to turn 30, and that seems weird enough, but I am also now getting MARRIED. Wow. I do struggle with the head trip of it all. I know that it won't change me, but I do think these things change the way other people see you.

I wonder what kind of knot we will tie. Definitely not a stopper knot, as we are only just starting. We have already hitched up, so we won't need a hitcher. Some kind of bend would be appropriate, as it is a turning point in our lives. Maybe the true lovers knot. Wikipedia tells me legend has it that the Dutch sailors tied this knot to remind them of their loved ones during their ocean voyages in the 16th century. The two intertwining overhand knots symbolize two intertwined lovers. The knot is sometimes used by goldsmiths to make a romantic piece of jewelry.

Like true love, the simplicity is deceptive, as this knot is difficult to tie correctly.